For last year’s words belong to last year’s language
And next year’s words await another voice.
~T.S. Eliot, “Little Gidding”
Just after Christmas, my friend Alysia over at SPDBN asked a question of some of her contributors. What, she asked, was your favorite memory with your child this past year, and what is something you’re looking forward to in 2012?
It wasn’t hard to answer the first part of the question. I immediately flashed to New York. I saw my baby girl in her front row seat at Godspell – conquering so much to experience something so important to her and so utterly, deliciously, wondrously fabulous. Yes, Godspell was, by far, my favorite memory with my girl this year.
But the second part of the question proved trickier. What is something you’re looking forward to in 2012? My immediate answer was I have no idea.
You see, this road we’re on doesn’t come with a map. I don’t have the luxury – or wait, the limitation, yes? - of knowing what to expect around the next turn. This road winds and curves and demands that we hold on for dear life. It doubles back over treacherous terrain we know we’ve seen before but I’ll be damned if it doesn’t change ever so slightly each time. And then suddenly, without warning, it whipsaws us into scenery more beautiful than any our limited imaginations could conjure. But nope. No map.
So what is something that I look forward to in 2012?
With no map to consult, no ordered mile markers to expect, I have no idea.
What I do know is that I’m looking forward to finding out. In fact, I’m thrilled by the overwhelming possibility of the year’s blank canvas.
I’m worried, yes. I’d be lying if I didn’t admit to the worry. The tough terrain scares the crap out me and even though I can’t see it, I know it’s waiting. But so too I know that we’ll get through it. It’s what we do.
And when we do, I’ll follow my girl as she conquers new challenges, breaks apart more and more perceived limitations, and little by little, finds her way in this world. I can’t wait to see what she does when she puts her beautiful, determined mind to it – whatever it may be.
So I guess that’s my answer. I don’t really know what I’m looking forward to. But I’m looking forward to finding out.
Wishing you and yours a new year filled with peace, progress, laughter, love and joy.